#MyPlotTwist

It has been so long and I can't remember when. 
For the past 6 years, my heart just stopped until one day a guy walked into my life and changed the entire thing.

We grew close to each other and before I knew it I have already fallen in love with him.
Fell so hard for him.

I love him not only because he gives me butterflies to my stomach but also because I just felt that way.
I love him not only because I shiver when he smiles at me but also because he makes my heart skip a bit whenever he flashes those smiles.

He gave me a feeling that I have been searching for a long time..

A feeling that I have never felt for any body else but him.
I was a lonely soul before he came.
He literally saved my fucked up life.
He makes me happy.

Things are just complicated between us but I keep on praying that it will be worth the wait.

He is the person I want to be with in this life time.
I want to see his smile each morning and look into his eyes each night for the rest of my life.

I won't stop loving and being honest and loyal to him. Even if I have to wait forever, I would.

Knowing that we love each other is more than enough.
As long as we have each other's back, I could not ask for more.

I would love him for the rest of my life
May he or may not return that love.

He is the best thing that has happened to me and no one and nothing could ever take that away.

#GoingDeeper

A couple of months ago, I met this guy who happened to be 11 years younger than I am. (GOSH) We started talking and gradually became close. And puff, I just found myself falling in love with him. I don't know why and I don't know how. I just felt that way. It was something I haven't had felt for the past 6 years of my life. That feeling just came out of the blue. And to be honest, for the first time in forever I have finally found someone who makes me genuinely happy.

Days passed, my feelings for him has gone deeper as days go by. I wish we'd stay like this forever. He has already become the most important person in my life and became the closest person to me right now. But sadly, things between us are just basically super complicated. But I don't want to lose him under any circumstances. I am still hoping for that one day. And God knows how much I beg and pray everynight so that this guy would stay by my side and wouldn't leave me ever. Cheesy but that's the truth.

Things are not easy, there are days that I feel so insecure and kinda jealous of little things but I just shake off that feeling coz in the first place, I don't have the rights to get mad and to demand. That is the realest struggle I have to go through everyday.

and because I love him to the moon and back, I would do anything just to see and make him happy. I would literally and figuratively give my all just to see the person I love the most HAPPY :)

Moving Forward 'coz Life Goes On

      “Here in my heart there’s a picture of us..” This has been on my playlist since my son (adapted) left the country for good. It’s been 5 days and 18 hours since the last time I saw his face. Grabe na ituuu I thought I was gonna be okay. This is far worse than a break-up . (LMAO) That night,when we bid our final goodbyes that’s the time when I realized that he really meant so much to me. I never thought that our parting would really have a huge impact on me. I couldn’t sleep well. I’ve always been turning and twisting on my bed. Thoughts creep up and I think I am about to lose my head anytime. Sadness and loneliness fill my heart right now. The amount of tears that I have shed to date is immeasurable. Each time I remember our memories, I burst into tears. (like I do that 6 times a day).

 I know you guys think I am just being overrated or over-acting. But this young boy has really made a huge impact in my life. Because for the first time in 3 years I have finally found my happiness again. Through him, I realized that “being happy” does not simply rely on having a perfect life. My life has been a roller coaster, and yet he did not judge me when I told him my deepest and darkest secrets. He taught me how to move forward with my life. For the first time in 3 years, I have finally lived a comfortable life and a life without having to keep my secrets anymore. I finally got a friend to whom I can tell what’s been going through with me. In short, I finally got a peace of mind coz I know I have someone like him whom I can tell everything. He simply brought out the best in me. (I would give anything to have a son like him LOL) He has become one of the reasons why I wake up each morning, why I still want to live this life on earth and why I am grateful to be alive.

    All good things must come to an end, but what we had together would never be forgotten. Thank you Lord for text messaging and video calling! One day, I would get used to seeing his face on the screen of my phone. We may not get to hang-out now that he is miles away I just hope and pray that we’d continue telling each one’s story. He has his own life to deal with and I got mine, too. I guess I should leave it that way. I know it won’t be easy but I know someday I will get used to living far away from him. I know I could overcome the distance, I’d make it through time, I could bridge the waters and I would definitely overcome “THE GREAT DIVIDE” – While I am soaking up the sun, He’s underneath the moon and I’d be wishing I could share it with him. He’s gonna live his life and I am gonna live mine, I know somehow we could find a way to get through. Life goes on. Everything happens for a reason.

   I am wishing him nothing but the best in life. I may not be physically around him, I know that he knows that I’d always support him, love him and care about him no matter what.

   Sometimes we really have to let go of the things we love so that we could get to the other side. It’s sad but sometimes moving on with the rest of our lives starts with goodbye.

My Best Friend is Moving Away

It was the last Friday of January this year. He told me that his visa has finally arrived. Of course, I felt happy for him but then I died a little bit inside. So many questions came to my mind. What would life be like without him? Would he forget about me once he started to meet new people there? That thought of getting left behind literally and figuratively drives me crazy! He would be alive and well while I am stuck in this place, feeling sorry for myself. That “sanay naman akong maiwan” feeling crept up again. This is not the first time a friend left the country for good. And it’s been 17 years since the last time I saw her. We grew apart. And to be honest I really have no idea what’s been happening to her life. I got anxious and afraid of what happened to our friendship. I just wish to the heavens that it would not happen this time around.

When I am so much attached emotionally to a person, it is just normal to feel that I won’t be able to live a happy life without that person’s presence. And my heart breaks down into infinite pieces on the mere thought of parting…

However, I’ve come to realize that each and every person that comes into my life has a purpose and leaves, once that purpose is served.

People come and go but life goes on…

#GuroAko Essay Writing Contest Entry (3rd Place Winner) October 22, 2016 By: Mrs. Erika Paula R. David

“Seeing and witnessing my student finally getting his most desired Basketball Championship” would always (probably) be my most memorable experience as a teacher. For three years, I’ve been there guiding and supporting him in his basketball games. And finally, just two days ago he won his first ever championship trophy. Not only that, he was also named as the MVP by his coaches and team mates. It was really a proud moment for me. I have witnessed his down falls in his Student-Athlete life but he never gave up. I am really motivated by students who never give up and those who would never stop trying until they finally succeed.

I’ve been teaching for eight years now and I could say that I have touched lives. Modesty aside, many parents and people in our school community see me as a very supportive teacher to my students. One of those experiences is being a very supportive adviser, teacher-coach and best friend to my baby boy, Andrei Miguel S. Tenorio. I always see to it that he knows how to balance his academics and sports activities. Through my efforts, he is encouraged to do well in his academics despite the hectic demands of his basketball training. I’ve always been there for him. I have always accompanied him in his basketball practices, gave him my extra time to teach and explain the lessons he missed. And thankfully, he still made it to the top 10 of his class. I’ve always been there to comfort him most especially when his haters try to bring him down. Because of my love and care, he is inspired to do better. He was able to prove his haters wrong and I am really proud that at this moment, he finally harvested his fruits of labor.. And these fruits are sweet! A kid with a dream always inspires me to do my role better. Even though the struggle may be real, our moral support to our pupils is what they would always appreciate and would always remember.

Being a teacher does not end in the four corners of the classroom. Being a good teacher is not just all about teaching them knowledge. It goes beyond that. Your love, care and support for your students are also important. Through these, they would be motivated to do better.

I teach because I want to inspire young minds and I, myself wants to be inspired by these little kids, too.

Xoxo,

Rika

                                                                                                                         

Cheers to the New Year!

"Page 1 of 365" -- yeah, (but we are already on page 3 of 365 LOL ) Bam! It's 2015 and another year of different endeavor and adventures (and some unfortunate events ahead!)

New Year is an another chance given to us. It is like starting a new given life. Back to square one? Nah.. not really! It is time for changes. CHANGE for the BETTER! For me new year is a way of doing things I didn't over the previous year.

 So.. how did I celebrate my page 1 of 365 Book 2015?? Of course, by waiting for that countdown to 12:01 am. I live in the Philippines so I'm quite ahead of time (but Australia's still hours ahead than my country is) We ate our media noche... and then went back to sleep! Morning came, I got up early for that same old morning walk with Jessy. Prepared breakfast and then went all-geared-up because we would be hearing mass then we'd be off to my hometown. (January 1st is also our barrio fiesta!) It's good to be back at my parents'/grand parents' house. I literally ate A LOT there. Took some nap and then waited for the Parade of Muses. (But dang! It was raining, all the muses in their beautiful gowns were under their umbrellas! of course, the SHOW MUST GO ON). Back when I was in 2nd year High school, I also became one the muses who paraded in the streets of Bancal Barrio Fiesta.  That was many moons ago! After the parade, we set ourselves and then went home. Ate. and then went to sleep. A very typical but happy new year's celebration! 

New Year's Resolution? We can't get away with that.. so here are some of my new year's resolutions.

• Always be punctual (somethings never change!!! ha ha ha)
• No Petiks.. (Procrastinating.. ehem..ehem.. grades, test papers. etc) 
• SAVE (very difficult)
  

Things I look forward to? Good life, good health, more MONEY and more FANGIRLING MOMENTS?!

So everyone, let us enjoy this year, 2015 and live life to the fullest!

To God be the Glory. 

Year-End Blog Entry

TIME FLIES! Doesn't it? In just about 4 hours we'd be saying goodbye to 2014! A New Year, A New Chapter is about to unfold.

2014 has been a tough year for me but it made me extremely happy in totality. This year also made me realize about the deeper aspects of life. 

        What made my year so spectacular was becoming a new mom to my second child. (yay!) It was the best news in my entire 2014. Well the bad news was... no time for fangirling stuff for quite a while. (well at least I got to see one game in the UAAP!! tapos talo pa sila diba.. do-or-die game pa naman yun!) Kidding aside, being a new mom taught me how to balance things, and I was able to give more focus on my own family. (But I really do miss my fangirls so much, I know I will see them soon!) 

         And of course, for the first time ever I also became a full-time teacher/ department chair of Gen. Education in SRC ELEM. (Santa Rita College, the name of the school where I devote half of my life) A full-time teacher in a sense that I didn't  fall absent (make takas, just to watch UAAP! ha ha ha) anymore for not-so-valid reasons. I actually became a more responsible teacher and a Head of our department. 

So... here are the Highlights of my 2014: 

- having a cute little baby girl Jessy! (She's almost 9 months!) 

- Jazz's first time in a formal school! 

-Silver place in the NCZAAM Basketball Elementary Boys Division

-One of my pupils making it to the Palarong Pambansa -wehhhhh-- TO DAVAO, we go!

-My Bff Karen, came home from Dubai after 3 years!
-Got to reunite with my 1000 Team friends!

-Got to celebrate my 18th Birthday (PART 8)  ha ha ha 

As I end this blog entry, I wish everyone a blessed and a prosperous New Year! :)